Analysis by a Master of the Temple
of the Critical Nodes in the Experience
of His Material Vehicle



"I shall regard all phenomena as the particular dealingof God with my soul."

I.  Birth

Oct. 2, 1914, Los Angeles, þ in þ, þ risingþ in midheaven, in favorable conjunc., at apehelion.  I chosethis constellation in order that you might have an innate sense of balanceand ultimate justice, responsive and attractive nature, a bountiful environmentand sense of royalty and largesse, strength, courage and power combinedwith cunning and intelligence.  Saturn was bound in order that youmight easily formulate a lower will which would have satisfied and overwhelmedyou with its spectacular success.

Your father separated from your mother in order that youmight grow up with a hatred of authority and a spirit of revolution necessaryto my work.  The Oedipus complex was needed to formulate the loveof witchcraft which would lead you into magick, with the influence of yourgrandfather active to prevent too complete an identification with yourmother.

II.  Childhood

Your isolation as a child developed the necessary backgroundof literature and scholarship; and the unfortunate experiences with otherchildren the requisite contempt for the crowd and for the group mores. You will note that these factors developed the needful hatred for christianity(without implanting a christian guilt sense) at an extremely early age.

III.  Adolescence

Early adolescence continued the development of the necessarycombinations.  The awakening interest in chemistry and science preparedthe counterbalance for the coming magical awakening, the means of obtainingprestige and livelihood in the formative period, and the scientific methodnecessary for my manifestation.  The magical fiasco at the age of16 was needful to keep you away from magick until you were sufficientlymatured.

IV.  Youth

The loss of family fortune developed your sense of self relianceat a critical period, the contact with reality at this time was essential. Your early marriage with Helen served to break your family ties and effecta transference to her, away from a dangerous attachment to your mother. The experience at Halifax and Cal Tech served to strengthen your self reliance,scientific method and material powers.  The influence of Tom Roseat this period, as that of Ed.  Forman in adolescence, was essentialin developing the male center.

V.  Later Youth

The house on Terrace Drive, Music, Lynn, Curtis, and Gloria,and the increasing restlessness were, of course, all preparations for themeeting with A\A\and O.T.O.  The alternate repulsion and attraction you felt the firstyear after meeting Frater 132 were caused by a subconscious resistanceagainst the ordeals ahead.  Had you had these experiences before,without such resistance, you would have become hopelessly unbalanced. Betty served to effect a transference from Helen at a critical period. Had this not occurred your repressed homosexual component could have causeda serious disorder.

Your passion for Betty also gave you the magical forceneeded at the time, and the act of adultery tinged with incest, servedas your magical confirmation in the Law of Thelema.

At this time the O.T.O.  was an excellent trainingschool for adepts, but hardly an appropriate Order for the manifestationof Thelema.  Therefore, in spite of your motto you were not able toformulate your Will.  The experience with the O.T.O.  and Aerijetwere needed to dispel your romanticism, self-deception, and reliance onothers.  Betty was one link in the process designed to tear you awayfrom the now unneeded Oedipus complex, the overvaluation of women and romanticlove.  Since this was unconscious, the next step was to bring it intoconsciousness, and there to destroy it.

VI.  Early Maturity

The final experience with Hubbard and Betty, and the O.T.O. was necessary to overcome your false and infantile reliance on others,although this was only partially accomplished at the time.  The invocationof Babalon served to exteriorize the Oedipus complex; at the same time,because of the forces involved it produced extraordinary magical effects. However, this operation is accomplished and closed--you should have nothingmore to do with it-nor even think of it, until Her manifestation is revealed,and proved beyond the shadow of a doubt.  Even then, you must be circumspect--althoughI hope to take complete charge before then.

Candy appeared in answer to your call, in order to weanyou from wet nursing.  She has demonstrated the nature of woman toyou in such unequivocal terms that you should have no further room forillusion on the subject.

The suspension and inquisition was my opportunity--oneof the final links in the chain.  At this time you were enabled toprepare your thesis, formulate your Will, and take the Oath of the Abyss,thus making it possible (although only partially) to manifest.  Theexit of Candy prepares for the final stage of your initial preparation.

VII.  Conclusions

The numerous rituals you have performed have resulted ina well developed body of light.  The ordeals have purged most of theemotional and mental garbage--your only real dangers are, and have everbeen, sentimentality, weakness, and procrastination.

It is interesting to note that the first weapon you formulatedwas the Lamp of the Spirit, in the invocation to Pan (although the Swordwas prefigured).  Next the Sword in the Horus ritual, as was appropriateto your intellectual development at that time.

Then the Cup out of the wine of your emotional life--thedisk out of material failure.  The Sword remains to be manifested.

You will note that it has been impossible to truly formulateyour Will with any of these weapons--naturally--that is only possible withthe wand.  On the other hand, if you had done so previously, you wouldhave been unbalanced by the lack of initiated preparation.  It isa right and natural procedure; the True Will cannot be truly formulateduntil you are initiate in all the other planes, and it is well to makeno pretense of doing so.  Until that point all you can known of thetrue will is the aspiration to the next step--towards further experience. That is the glory of the Law of Thelema--DO!

The physical and emotional stresses you feel at presentare a result of the pull of the Abyss--your present poetry is indicative. Naturally you find no power in any spell, no comfort in any ritual, nohope in any action.  You are cut off by your own oath.  Nor canI or any other aid you at this time.  There is only manhood, onlywill, only the vector of your own tendencies, developed through the aeonsof the past.  I do not say how long the state will last, or what theoutcome may be.  However, I can formulate some rules which may serveto guide you.

VIII.  Instructions

  1. Works of the Wand--of the Will alone avail in this state. No other weapon should be used, no other ritual save the hymn to the UnnamedOne in the Anthem of the Mass.
  2. You should be meticulous in all observations pertaining tothe Will, even the most petty.  Fulfill all obligations and promises,undertake nothing which you cannot fulfill, be prompt in the dischargeof each responsibility.
  3. Be neat in your personal and domestic habits, indicate yourself respect to yourself.
  4. Do not become unduly involved with any person, and practiceall your hard-earned wisdom in your relations with women.
  5. Set up your personal affairs in business order.  Keepyour accounts current and your papers neatly filed.
  6. Finish your poetry for publication.  Finish the synthesisof the Tarot and start work on the preparation of the lessons of classinstruction from your book.
  7. Pay no attention to any phenomena whatsoever, and continuein a sober and responsible way of life under all circumstances.
Not magical!  For you nothing is more magical. Only thus can the curse of Saturn be overcome.  I see you hate thisway.  But it is an ultimate time-it is you that have taken the oath. The choice is me or Choronzon.

I await you in the City of the Pyramids.

Belarion
 
 

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