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In reading this text, consider the following two points:

1. The pattern of alternating imagery follows Crowley'sformulas, notably
IAO and FIAOF. These images at first build generallyin the IAO sequence
and break up half way through. They are quickly replacedby succeeding
images in the same pattern, and some few reach climaxat the final "O" of
"IAO". A very few manifest the full FIAOF sequence, evenin the early
chapters. Success is more frequent in the later chapters.The images
themselves are taken from literature, including, in lines11-18, the
Satyricon, from Tarot, from myth, personal experiencesand Crowley's own
fantasies.

2. These images progress from chapter to chapter as asort of recapitulation
of Crowley's thought. Thus, the demonic imagery fromthe early chapters
reflects Crowley's youthful rebellion against his Christianupbringing.
This is mingled with sexual symbolism which increasesand reevaluates in the
same sequence as his thought developed from first goingoff to school
through the pivotal experience itself. Serious studentsmay wish to analyze
this text with the aid of Crowley's "Confessions", theautobiographical
segments of "The Gospel According to St. Bernard Shaw","Liber 118" and
"Liber CXI" --- more or less in that order of utility.

--- Bill Heidrick
 
 

Being the Voluntary Emancipation of a certain Exempt Adeptfrom his
Adeptship. These are the Birth-Words of a Master of theTemple.

PROLOGUE OF THE UNBORN

1. Into my loneliness comes ---

2. The sound of a flute in dim groves that haunt the uttermosthills.

3. Even from the brave river they reach to the edge ofthe wilderness.

4. And I behold Pan.

5. The snows are eternal above, above ---

6. And their perfume smokes upward into the nostrils ofthe stars.

7. But what have I to do with these?

8. To me only the distant flute, the abiding vision ofPan.

9. On all sides Pan to the eye, to the ear;

10. The perfume of Pan pervading, the taste of him utterlyfilling my
mouth, so that the tongue breaks forth into a weird andmonstrous speech.

11. The embrace of him intense on every centre of painand pleasure.

12. The sixth interior sense aflame with the inmost selfof Him,

13. Myself flung down the precipice of being

14. Even to the abyss, annihilation.

15. An end to loneliness, as to all.

16. Pan! Pan! Io Pan! Io Pan!
 
 

I

1. My God, how I love Thee!

2. With the vehement appetite of a beast I hunt Thee throughthe Universe.
3. Thou art standing as it were upon a pinnacle at theedge of some
fortifed city. I am a white bird, and perch upon Thee.

4. Thou art My Lover: I see Thee as a nymph with her whitelimbs stretched
by the spring.

5. She lies upon the moss; there is none other but she:

6. Art Thou not Pan?

7. I am He. Speak not, O my God! Let the work be accomplishedin silence.
8. Let my cry of pain be crystallized into a little whitefawn to run away
into the forest!

9. Thou art a centaur, O my God, from the violet-blossomsthat crown Thee
to the hoofs of the horse.

10. Thou art harder than tempered steel; there is no diamondbeside Thee.

11. Did I not yield this body and soul?

12. I woo thee with a dagger drawn across my throat.

13. Let the spout of blood quench Thy blood-thirst, Omy God!

14. Thou art a little white rabbit in the burrow Night.

15. I am greater than the fox and the hole.

16. Give me Thy kisses, O Lord God!

17. The lightning came and licked up the little flockof sheep.

18. There is a tongue and a flame; I see that tridentwalking over the sea.

19. A phoenix hath it for its head; below are two prongs.They spear the
wicked.

20. I will spear Thee, O Thou little grey god, unlessThou beware!

21. From the grey to the gold; from the gold to that whichis beyond the
gold of Ophir.

22. My God! but I love Thee!

23. Why hast Thou whispered so ambiguous things? WastThou afraid, O
goat-hoofed One, O horned One, O pillar of lightning?

24. From the lightning fall pearls; from the pearls blackspecks of
nothing.

25. I based all on one, one on naught.

26. Afloat in the aether, O my God, my God!

27. O Thou great hooded sun of glory, cut off these eyelids!

28. Nature shall die out; she hideth me, closing mineeyelids with fear,
she hideth me from My destruction, O Thou open eye.

29. O ever-weeping One!

30. Not Isis my mother, nor Osiris my self; but the incestuousHorus given
over to Typhon, so may I be!

31. There thought; and thought is evil.

32. Pan! Pan! Io Pan! it is enough.

33. Fall not into death, O my soul! Think that death isthe bed into which
you are falling!

34. O how I love Thee, O my God! Especially is there avehement parallel
light from infinity, vilely diffracted in the haze ofthis mind.

35. I love Thee. I love Thee. I love Thee.

36. Thou art a beautiful thing whiter than a woman inthe column of this
vibration.

37. I shoot up vertically like an arrow, and become thatAbove.

38. But it is death, and the flame of the pyre.

39. Ascend in the flame of the pyre, O my soul! Thy Godis like the cold
emptiness of the utmost heaven, into which thou radiatestthy little light.

40. When Thou shall know me, O empty God, my flame shallutterly expire in
Thy great N. O. X.

41. What shalt Thou be, my God, when I have ceased tolove Thee?

42. A worm, a nothing, a niddering knave!

43. But Oh! I love Thee.

44. I have thrown a million flowers from the basket ofthe Beyond at Thy
feet, I have anointed Thee and Thy Staff with oil andblood and kisses.

45. I have kindled Thy marble into life --- ay! into death.

46. I have been smitten with the reek of Thy mouth, thatdrinketh never
wine but life.

47. How the dew of the Universe whitens the lips!

48. Ah! trickling flow of the stars of the mother Supernal,begone!

49. I Am She that should come, the Virgin of all men.

50. I am a boy before Thee, O Thou satyr God.

51. Thou wilt inflict the punishment of pleasure --- Now!Now! Now!

52. Io Pan! Io Pan! I love Thee. I love Thee.

53. O my God, spare me!

54. Now!

It is done! Death.

55. I cried aloud the word --- and it was a mighty spellto bind the
Invisible, an enchantment to unbind the bound; yea, tounbind the bound.
 
 

II

1. O my God! use Thou me again, alway. For ever! For ever!

2. That which came fire from Thee cometh water from me;let therefore Thy
Spirit lay hold on me, so that my right hand loose thelightning.

3. Travelling through space, I saw the onrush of two galaxies,butting each
other and goring like bulls upon earth. I was afraid.

4. Thus they ceased fight, and turned upon me, and I wassorely crushed
and torn.

5. I had rather have been trampled by the World-Elephant.

6. O my God! Thou art my little pet tortoise!

7. Yet Thou sustainest the World-Elephant.

8. I creep under Thy carapace, like a lover into the bedof his beautiful;
I creep in, and sit in Thine heart, as cubby and cosyas may be.

9. Thou shelterest me, that I hear not the trumpetingof that
World-Elephant.

10. Thou art not worth an obol in the agora; yet Thouart not to be bought
at the ransom of the whole Universe.

11. Thou art like a beautiful Nubian slave leaning hernaked purple against
the green pillars of marble that are above the bath.

12. Wine jets from her black nipples.

13. I drank wine awhile agone in the house of Pertinax.The cup-boy
favoured me, and gave me of the right sweet Chian.

14. There was a Doric boy, skilled in feats of strength,an athlete. The
full moon fled away angrily down the wrack.

Ah! but we laughed.

15. I was pernicious drunk, O my God! Yet Pertinax broughtme to the
bridal.

16. I had a crown of thorns for all my dower.

17. Thou art like a goat's horn from Astor, O Thou Godof mine, gnarl'd
and crook'd and devilish strong.

18. Colder than all the ice of all the glaciers of theNaked Mountain was
the wine it poured for me.

19. A wild country and a waning moon.

Clouds scudding over the sky.

A circuit of pines, and of tall yews beyond.

Thou in the midst!

20. O all ye toads and cats, rejoice! Ye slimy things,come hither!

21. Dance, dance to the Lord our God!

22. He is he! He is he! He is he!

23. Why should I go on?

24. Why? Why? comes the sudden cackle of a million impsof hell.

25. And the laughter runs.

26. But sickens not the Universe; but shakes not the stars.

27. God! how I love Thee!

28. I am walking in an asylum; all the men and women aboutme are insane.

29. Oh madness! madness! madness! desirable art thou!

30. But I love Thee, O God!

31. These men and women rave and howl; they froth outfolly.

32. I begin to be afraid. I have no check; I am alone.Alone. Alone.

33. Think, O God, how I am happy in Thy love.

34. O marble Pan! O false leering face! I love Thy darkkisses, bloody
and stinking! O marble Pan! Thy kisses are like sunlighton the blue
AEgean; their blood is the blood of the sunset over Athens;their stink is
like a garden of Roses of Macedonia.

35. I dreamt of sunset and roses and vines; Thou wastthere, O my God, Thou
didst habit Thyself as an Athenian courtesan, and I lovedThee.

36. Thou art no dream, O Thou too beautiful alike forsleep and waking!

37. I disperse the insane folk of the earth; I walk alonewith my little
puppets in the garden.

38. I am Gargantuan great; yon galaxy is but the smoke-ringof mine
incense.

39. Burn Thou strange herbs, O God!

40. Brew me a magic liquor, boys, with your glances!

41. The very soul is drunken.

42. Thou art drunken, O my God, upon my kisses.

43. The Universe reels; Thou hast looked upon it.

44. Twice, and all is done.

45. Come, O my God, and let us embrace!

46. Lazily, hungrily, ardently, patiently; so will I work.

47. There shall be an End.

48. O God! O God!

49. I am a fool to love Thee; Thou art cruel, Thou withholdestThyself.

50. Come to me now! I love Thee! I love Thee!

51. O my darling, my darling --- Kiss me! Kiss me! Ah!but again.

52. Sleep, take me! Death, take me! This life is too full;it pains, it
slays, it suffices.

53. Let me go back into the world; yea, back into theworld.
 
 

III

1. I was the priest of Ammon-Ra in the temple of Ammon-Raat Thebai.

2. But Bacchus came singing with his troops of vine-cladgirls, of girls
in dark mantles; and Bacchus in the midst like a fawn!

3. God! how I ran out in my rage and scattered the chorus!

4. But in my temple stood Bacchus as the priest of Ammon-Ra.

5. Therefore I went wildly with the girls into Abyssinia;and there we
abode and rejoiced.

6. Exceedingly; yea, in good sooth!

7. I will eat the ripe and the unripe fruit for the gloryof Bacchus.

8. Terraces of ilex, and tiers of onyx and opal and sardonyxleading up to
the cool green porch of malachite.

9. Within is a crystal shell, shaped like an oyster ---O glory of Priapus!
O beatitude of the Great Goddess!

10. Therein is a pearl.

11. O Pearl! thou hast come from the majesty of dreadAmmon-Ra.

12. Then I the priest beheld a steady glitter in the heartof the pearl.

13. So bright we could not look! But behold! a blood-redrose upon a rood
of glowing gold!

14. So I adored the God. Bacchus! thou art the lover ofmy God!

15. I who was priest of Ammon-Ra, who saw the Nile flowby for many moons,
for many, many moons, am the young fawn of the grey land.

16. I will set up my dance in your conventicles, and mysecret loves shall
be sweet among you.

17. Thou shalt have a lover among the lords of the greyland.

18. This shall he bring unto thee, without which all isin vain; a man's
life spilt for thy love upon My Altars.

19. Amen.

20. Let it be soon, O God, my God! I ache for Thee, Iwander very lonely
among the mad folk, in the grey land of desolation.

21. Thou shalt set up the abominable lonely Thing of wickedness.Oh joy!
to lay that corner-stone!

22. It shall stand erect upon the high mountain; onlymy God shall commune
with it.

23. I will build it of a single ruby; it shall be seenfrom afar off.

24. Come! let us irritate the vessels of the earth: theyshall distil
strange wine.

25. It grows under my hand: it shall cover the whole heaven.

26. Thou art behind me: I scream with a mad joy.

27. Then said Ithuriel the strong; let Us also worshipthis invisible
marvel!

28. So did they, and the archangels swept over the heaven.

29. Strange and mystic, like a yellow priest invokingmighty flights of
great grey birds from the North, so do I stand and invokeThee!

30. Let them obscure not the sun with their wings andtheir clamour!

31. Take away form and its following!

32. I am still.

33. Thou art like an osprey among the rice, I am the greatred pelican in
the sunset waters.

34. I am like a black eunuch; and Thou art the scimitar.I smite off the
head of the light one, the breaker of bread and salt.

35. Yea! I smite --- and the blood makes as it were asunset on the lapis
lazuli of the King's Bedchamber.

36. I smite! The whole world is broken up into a mightywind, and a voice
cries aloud in a tongue that men cannot speak.

37. I know that awful sound of primal joy; let us followon the wings of
the gale even unto the holy house of Hathor; let us offerthe five jewels
of the cow upon her altar!

38. Again the inhuman voice!

39. I rear my Titan bulk into the teeth of the gale, andI smite and
prevail, and swing me out over the sea.

40. There is a strange pale God, a god of pain and deadlywickedness.

41. My own soul bites into itself, like a scorpion ringedwith fire.

42. That pallid God with face averted, that God of subtletyand laughter,
that young Doric God, him will I serve.

43. For the end thereof is torment unspeakable.

44. Better the loneliness of the great grey sea!

45. But ill befall the folk of the grey land, my God!

46. Let me smother them with my roses!

47. Oh Thou delicious God, smile sinister!

48. I pluck Thee, O my God, like a purple plum upon asunny tree. How Thou
dost melt in my mouth, Thou consecrated sugar of theStars!

49. The world is all grey before mine eyes; it is likean old worn
wine-skin.

50. All the wine of it is on these lips.

51. Thou hast begotten me upon a marble Statue, O my God!

52. The body is icy cold with the coldness of a millionmoons; it is harder
than the adamant of eternity. How shall I come forthinto the light?

53. Thou art He, O God! O my darling! my child! my plaything!Thou art
like a cluster of maidens, like a multitude of swansupon the lake.

54. I feel the essence of softness.

55. I am hard and strong and male; but come Thou! I shallbe soft and weak
and feminine.

56. Thou shalt crush me in the wine-press of Thy love.My blood shall
stain Thy fiery feet with litanies of Love in Anguish.

57. There shall be a new flower in the fields, a new vintagein the
vineyards.

58. The bees shall gather a new honey; the poets shallsing a new song.

59. I shall gain the Pain of the Goat for my prize; andthe God that
sitteth upon the shoulders of Time shall drowse.

60. Then shall all this which is written be accomplished:yea, it shall be
accomplished.
 

IV

1. I am like a maiden bathing in a clear pool of freshwater.

2. O my God! I see Thee dark and desirable, rising throughthe water as
a golden smoke.

3. Thou art altogether golden, the hair and the eyebrowsand the brilliant
face; even into the finger-tips and toe-tips Thou artone rosy dream of
gold.

4. Deep into Thine eyes that are golden my soul leaps,like an archangel
menacing the sun.

5. My sword passes through and through Thee; crystallinemoons ooze out of
Thy beautiful body that is hidden behind the ovals ofThine eyes.

6. Deeper, ever deeper. I fall, even as the whole Universefalls down the
abyss of Years.

7. For Eternity calls; the Overworld calls; the worldof the Word is
awaiting us.

8. Be done with speech, O God! Fasten the fangs of thehound Eternity in
this my throat!

9. I am like a wounded bird flapping in circles.

10. Who knows where I shall fall?

11. O blessed One! O God! O my devourer!

12. Let me fall, fall down, fall away, afar, alone!

13. Let me fall!

14. Nor is there any rest, Sweet Heart, save in the cradleof royal
Bacchus, the thigh of the most Holy One.

15. There rest, under the canopy of night.

16. Uranus chid Eros; Marsyas chid Olympas; I chid mybeautiful lover with
his sunray mane; shall I not sing?

17. Shall not mine incantations bring around me the wonderfulcompany of
the wood-gods, their bodies glistening with the ointmentof moonlight and
honey and myrrh?

18. Worshipful are ye, O my lovers; let us forward tothe dimmest hollow!

19. There we will feast upon mandrake and upon moly!

20. There the lovely One shall spread us His holy banquet.In the brown
cakes of corn we shall taste the food of the world, andbe strong.

21. In the ruddy and awful cup of death we shall drinkthe blood of the
world, and be drunken!

22. Ohe! the song to Iao, the song to Iao!

23. Come, let us sing to thee, Iacchus invisible, Iacchustriumphant,
Iacchus indicible!

24. Iacchus, O Iacchus, O Iacchus, be near us!

25. Then was the countenance of all time darkened, andthe true light shone
forth.

26. There was also a certain cry in an unknown tongue,whose stridency
troubled the still waters of my soul, so that my mindand my body were
healed of their disease, self-knowledge.

27. Yea, an angel troubled the waters.

28. This was the cry of Him: IIIOOShBThIO-IIIIAMAMThIBI-II.

29. Nor did I sing this for a thousand times a night fora thousand nights
before Thou camest, O my flaming God, and pierced mewith Thy spear. Thy
scarlet robe unfolded the whole heavens, so that theGods said: All is
burning: it is the end.

30. Also Thou didst set Thy lips to the wound and suckout a million eggs.
And Thy mother sat upon them, and lo! stars and starsand ultimate Things
whereof stars are the atoms.

31. Then I perceived Thee, O my God, sitting like a whitecat upon the
trellis-work of the arbour; and the hum of the spinningworlds was but Thy
pleasure.

32. O white cat, the sparks fly from Thy fur! Thou dostcrackle with
splitting the worlds.

33. I have seen more of Thee in the white cat than I sawin the Vision of
Aeons.

34. In the boat of Ra did I travel, but I never foundupon the visible
Universe any being like unto Thee!

35. Thou wast like a winged white horse, and I raced Theethrough eternity
against the Lord of the Gods.

36. So still we race!

37. Thou wast like a flake of snow falling in the pine-cladwoods.

38. In a moment Thou wast lost in a wilderness of thelike and the unlike.

39. But I beheld the beautiful God at the back of theblizzard --- and Thou
wast He!

40. Also I read in a great book.

41. On ancient skin was written in letters of gold: Verbumfit Verbum.

42. Also Vitriol and the hierophant's name V.V.V.V.V.

43. All this wheeled in fire, in star-fire, rare and farand utterly lonely
--- even as Thou and I, O desolate soul my God!

44. Yea, and the writing

<<WEH NOTE: Two rows of symbols are part of thetext here. Most are too
complex to adequately describe or represent:

1st line, left to right: An antique Hebrew Letter Tawas a slanted to fight
equal arm cross with two curved lines crossing the horizontalbar and
opening out toward the sides. A figure like a capital"J" with three cross
bars, one at top. A figure like the letter "H" with theends of the
verticals dashing off to the right almost horizontally,a small spike upward
and parallel from the bottom of the left upright, thecrossbar extending and
trailing upward to the right, two small vertical dashesabove the extended
crossbar and a slanted 3x3 square grid canted below theextended crossbar.
Below, two slanted parallel lines slightly inclined upwardto the right and
a dot beneath; above an open canted 3x3 grid with twodots at the lower
corner points and a sort of jot from the center top downwardto the middle
right. A four-part figure with an "E" shape pointingdown on the bottom
left, an "E" shape in center, a "t" shape at upper leftto left center and
a near vertical line with barbels issuing to the right,all on the right
side. A looping doodle vaguely suggestive of a mouseon a line with a jot
like a fly below. An "E" shape with barbels hanging downfrom the
horizontals and a sort of two-tanged fork stuck betweenfrom the right. A
figure reminiscent of several antique Hebrew lettersin the form of a
vertical trident with wedges blunting the ends of thelines. This figure
is like a vertical four-tanged fork with two crossbars;the upper six line
ends terminate in small circles and the lower three areblunted by wedges.
The last figure on this line is composite, with a sortof "3" shape partly
filled by vertical and horizontal lines and a knob toppedvertical line to
the left, having barbels issuing toward the left on oneside.

2nd line, left to right: A complex scroll ending at bottomwith an arrow
head, the continuous line forming the words "Fuck theword" in the center.
An open 3x3 grid with the lines to the left missing pastthe left vertical.
A cuneiform character with a large stroke to the leftand three small upward
slanting strokes to the right, off the large stroke.A character signifying
"name of name(s) in the form of two upright rectangulargrids below a
vertical line and a dot below the grids. A whorl flattenedat an angle
toward the right with the numeral "8" grazing the flat.An Egyptian
hieroglyphic for "Bat" in the form of an erect phalluswith testes and a
"Th".>>

It is well.

This is the voice which shook the earth.

45. Eight times he cried aloud, and by eight and by eightshall I count
Thy favours, Oh Thou Elevenfold God 418!

46. Yea, and by many more; by the ten in the twenty-twodirections; even
as the perpendicular of the Pyramid --- so shall Thyfavours be.

47. If I number them, they are One.

48. Excellent is Thy love, Oh Lord! Thou art revealedby the darkness,
and he who gropeth in the horror of the groves shallhaply catch Thee, even
as a snake that seizeth on a little singing-bird.

49. I have caught Thee, O my soft thrush; I am like ahawk of
mother-of-emerald; I catch Thee by instinct, though myeyes fail from Thy
glory.

50. Yet they are but foolish folk yonder. I see them onthe yellow sand,
all clad in Tyrian purple.

51. They draw their shining God unto the land in nets;they build a fire
to the Lord of Fire, and cry unhallowed words, even thedreadful curse Amri
maratza, maratza, atman deona lastadza maratza maritza--- maran!

52. Then do they cook the shining god, and gulp him whole.

53. These are evil folk, O beautiful boy! let us passon to the Otherworld.

54. Let us make ourselves into a pleasant bait, into aseductive shape!

55. I will be like a splendid naked woman with ivory breastsand golden
nipples; my whole body shall be like the milk of thestars. I will be
lustrous and Greek, a courtesan of Delos, of the unstableIsle.

56. Thou shalt be like a little red worm on a hook.

57. But thou and I will catch our fish alike.

58. Then wilt thou be a shining fish with golden backand silver belly: I
will be like a violent beautiful man, stronger than twoscore bulls, a man
of the West bearing a great sack of precious jewels upona staff that is
greater than the axis of the all.

59. And the fish shall be sacrificed to Thee and the strongman crucified
for Me, and Thou and I will kiss, and atone for the wrongof the Beginning;
yea, for the wrong of the beginning.
 

V

1. O my beautiful God! I swim in Thy heart like a troutin the mountain
torrent.

2. I leap from pool to pool in my joy; I am goodly withbrown and gold and
silver.

3. Why, I am lovelier than the russet autumn woods atthe first snowfall.

4. And the crystal cave of my thought is lovelier thanI.

5. Only one fish-hook can draw me out; it is a woman kneelingby the bank
of the stream. It is she that pours the bright dew overherself, and into
the sand so that the river gushes forth.

6. There is a bird on yonder myrtle; only the song ofthat bird can draw
me out of the pool of Thy heart, O my God!

7. Who is this Neapolitan boy that laughs in his happiness?His lover is
the mighty crater of the Mountain of Fire. I saw hischarred limbs borne
down the slopes in a stealthy tongue of liquid stone.

8. And Oh! the chirp of the cicada!

9. I remember the days when I was cacique in Mexico.

10. O my God, wast Thou then as now my beautiful lover?

11. Was my boyhood then as now Thy toy, Thy joy?

12. Verily, I remember those iron days.

13. I remember how we drenched the bitter lakes with ourtorrent of gold;
how we sank the treasurable image in the crater of Citlaltepetl.

14. How the good flame lifted us even unto the lowlands,setting us down
in the impenetrable forest.

15. Yea, Thou wast a strange scarlet bird with a billof gold. I was Thy
mate in the forests of the lowland; and ever we heardfrom afar the shrill
chant of mutilated priests and the insane clamour ofthe Sacrifice of
Maidens.

16. There was a weird winged God that told us of his wisdom.

17. We attained to be starry grains of gold dust in thesands of a slow
river.

18. Yea, and that river was the river of space and timealso.

19. We parted thence; ever to the smaller, ever to thegreater, until now,
O sweet God, we are ourselves, the same.

20. O God of mine, Thou art like a little white goat withlightning in his
horns!

21. I love Thee, I love Thee.

22. Every breath, every word, every thought, every deedis an act of love
with Thee.

23. The beat of my heart is the pendulum of love.

24. The songs of me are the soft sighs:

25. The thoughts of me are very rapture:

26. And my deeds are the myriads of Thy children, thestars and the atoms.

27. Let there be nothing!

28. Let all things drop into this ocean of love!

29. Be this devotion a potent spell to exorcise the demonsof the Five!

30. Ah God, all is gone! Thou dost consummate Thy rapture.Falutli!
Falutli!

31. There is a solemnity of the silence. There is no morevoice at all.

32. So shall it be unto the end. We who were dust shallnever fall away
into the dust.

33. So shall it be.

34. Then, O my God, the breath of the Garden of Spices.All these have a
savour averse.

35. The cone is cut with an infinite ray; the curve ofhyperbolic life
springs into being.

36. Farther and farther we float; yet we are still. Itis the chain of
systems that is falling away from us.

37. First falls the silly world; the world of the oldgrey land.

38. Falls it unthinkably far, with its sorrowful beardedface presiding
over it; it fades to silence and woe.

39. We to silence and bliss, and the face is the laughingface of Eros.

40. Smiling we greet him with the secret signs.

41. He leads us into the Inverted Palace.

42. There is the Heart of Blood, a pyramid reaching itsapex down beyond
the Wrong of the Beginning.

43. Bury me unto Thy Glory, O beloved, O princely loverof this harlot
maiden, within the Secretest Chamber of the Palace!

44. It is done quickly; yea, the seal is set upon thevault.

45. There is one that shall avail to open it.

46. Nor by memory, nor by imagination, nor by prayer,nor by fasting, nor
by scourging, nor by drugs, nor by ritual, nor by meditation;only by
passive love shall he avail.

47. He shall await the sword of the Beloved and bare histhroat for the
stroke.

48. Then shall his blood leap out and write me runes inthe sky; yea, write
me runes in the sky.
 

VI

1. Thou wast a priestess, O my God, among the Druids;and we knew the
powers of the oak.

2. We made us a temple of stones in the shape of the Universe,even as thou
didst wear openly and I concealed.

3. There we performed many wonderful things by midnight.

4. By the waning moon did we work.

5. Over the plain came the atrocious cry of wolves.

6. We answered; we hunted with the pack.

7. We came even unto the new Chapel and Thou didst bearaway the Holy Graal
beneath Thy Druid vestments.

8. Secretly and by stealth did we drink of the informingsacrament.

9. Then a terrible disease seized upon the folk of thegrey land; and we
rejoiced.

10. O my God, disguise Thy glory!

11. Come as a thief, and let us steal away the Sacraments!

12. In our groves, in our cloistral cells, in our honeycombof happiness,
let us drink, let us drink!

13. It is the wine that tinges everything with the truetincture of
infallible gold.

14. There are deep secrets in these songs. It is not enoughto hear the
bird; to enjoy song he must be the bird.

15. I am the bird, and Thou art my song, O my gloriousgalloping God!

16. Thou reinest in the stars; thou drivest the constellationsseven
abreast through the circus of Nothingness.

17. Thou Gladiator God!

18. I play upon mine harp; Thou fightest the beasts andthe flames.

19. Thou takest Thy joy in the music, and I in the fighting.

20. Thou and I are beloved of the Emperor.

21. See! he has summoned us to the Imperial dais.

The night falls; it is a great orgy of worship and bliss.

22. The night falls like a spangled cloak from the shouldersof a prince
upon a slave.

23. He rises a free man!

24. Cast thou, O prophet, the cloak upon these slaves!

25. A great night, and scarce fires therein; but freedomfor the slave that
its glory shall encompass.

26. So also I went down into the great sad city.

27. There dead Messalina bartered her crown for poisonfrom the dead
Locusta; there stood Caligula, and smote the seas offorgetfulness.

28. Who wast Thou, O Caesar, that Thou knewest God inan horse?

29. For lo! we beheld the White Horse of the Saxon engravenupon the earth;
and we beheld the Horses of the Sea that flame aboutthe old grey land, and
the foam from their nostrils enlightens us!

30. Ah! but I love thee, God!

31. Thou art like a moon upon the ice-world.

32. Thou art like the dawn of the utmost snows upon theburnt-up flats of
the tiger's land.

33. By silence and by speech do I worship Thee.

34. But all is in vain.

35. Only Thy silence and Thy speech that worship me avail.

36. Wail, O ye folk of the grey land, for we have drunkyour wine, and left
ye but the bitter dregs.

37. Yet from these we will distil ye a liquor beyond thenectar of the
Gods.

38. There is value in our tincture for a world of Spiceand gold.

39. For our red powder of projection is beyond all possibilities.

40. There are few men; there are enough.

41. We shall be full of cup-bearers, and the wine is notstinted.

42. O dear my God! what a feast Thou hast provided.

43. Behold the lights and the flowers and the maidens!

44. Taste of the wines and the cakes and the splendidmeats!

45. Breathe in the perfumes and the clouds of little godslike wood-nymphs
that inhabit the nostrils!

46. Feel with your whole body the glorious smoothnessof the marble coolth
and the generous warmth of the sun and the slaves!

47. Let the Invisible inform all the devouring Light ofits disruptive
vigour!

48. Yea! all the world is split apart, as an old greytree by the
lightning! 49. Come, O ye gods, and let us feast.

50. Thou, O my darling, O my ceaseless Sparrow-God, mydelight, my desire,
my deceiver, come Thou and chirp at my right hand!

51. This was the tale of the memory of Al A'in the priest;yea, of Al A'in
the priest.
 

VII
 
 

1. By the burning of the incense was the Word revealed,and by the distant
drug.

2. O meal and honey and oil! O beautiful flag of the moon,that she hangs
out in the centre of bliss!

3. These loosen the swathings of the corpse; these unbindthe feet of
Osiris, so that the flaming God may rage through thefirmament with his
fantastic spear.

4. But of pure black marble is the sorry statue, and thechangeless pain
of the eyes is bitter to the blind.

5. We understand the rapture of that shaken marble, tornby the throes of
the crowned child, the golden rod of the golden God.

6. We know why all is hidden in the stone, within thecoffin, within the
mighty sepulchre, and we too answer Olalam! Imal! Tutulu!as it is written
in the ancient book.

7. Three words of that book are as life to a new aeon;no god has read the
whole.

8. But thou and I, O God, have written it page by page.

9. Ours is the elevenfold reading of the Elevenfold word.

10. These seven letters together make seven diverse words;each word is
divine, and seven sentences are hidden therein.

11. Thou art the Word, O my darling, my lord, my master!

12. O come to me, mix the fire and the water, all shalldissolve.

13. I await Thee in sleeping, in waking. I invoke Theeno more; for Thou
art in me, O Thou who hast made me a beautiful instrumenttuned to Thy
rapture.

14. Yet art Thou ever apart, even as I.

15. I remember a certain holy day in the dusk of the year,in the dusk of
the Equinox of Osiris, when first I beheld Thee visibly;when first the
dreadful issue was fought out; when the Ibis-headed Onecharmed away the
strife.

16. I remember Thy first kiss, even as a maiden should.Nor in the dark
byways was there another: Thy kisses abide.

17. There is none other beside Thee in the whole Universeof Love.

18. My God, I love Thee, O Thou goat with gilded horns!

19. Thou beautiful bull of Apis! Thou beautiful serpentof Apep! Thou
beautiful child of the Pregnant Goddess!

20. Thou hast stirred in Thy sleep, O ancient sorrow ofyears! Thou hast
raised Thine head to strike, and all is dissolved intothe Abyss of Glory.

21. An end to the letters of the words! An end to thesevenfold speech.

22. Resolve me the wonder of it all into the figure ofa gaunt swift camel
striding over the sand.

23. Lonely is he, and abominable; yet hath he gained thecrown.

24. Oh rejoice! rejoice!

25. My God! O my God! I am but a speck in the star-dustof ages; I am
the Master of the Secret of Things.

26. I am the Revealer and the Preparer. Mine is the Sword--- and the
Mitre and the Winged Wand!

27. I am the Initiator and the Destroyer. Mine is theGlobe --- and the
Bennu bird and the Lotus of Isis my daughter!

28. I am the One beyond these all; and I bear the symbolsof the mighty
darkness.

29. There shall be a sigil as of a vast black broodingocean of death and
the central blaze of darkness, radiating its night uponall.

30. It shall swallow up that lesser darkness.

31. But in that profound who shall answer: What is?

32. Not I.

33. Not Thou, O God!

34. Come, let us no more reason together; let us enjoy!Let us be
ourselves, silent, unique, apart.

35. O lonely woods of the world! In what recesses willye hide our love?

36. The forest of the spears of the Most High is calledNight, and Hades,
and the Day of Wrath; but I am His captain, and I bearHis cup.

37. Fear me not with my spearmen! They shall slay thedemons with their
petty prongs. Ye shall be free.

38. Ah, slaves! ye will not --- ye know not how to will.

39. Yet the music of my spears shall be a song of freedom.

40. A great bird shall sweep from the abyss of Joy, andbear ye away to be
my cup-bearers.

41. Come, O my God, in one last rapture let us attainto the Union with
the Many!

42. In the silence of Things, in the Night of Forces,beyond the accursed
domain of the Three, let us enjoy our love!

43. My darling! My darling! away, away beyond the Assemblyand the Law
and the Enlightenment unto an Anarchy of solitude andDarkness!

44. For even thus must we veil the brilliance of our Self.

45. My darling! My darling!

46. O my God, but the love in Me bursts over the bondsof Space and Time;
my love is spilt among them that love not love.

47. My wine is poured out for them that never tasted wine.

48. The fumes thereof shall intoxicate them and the vigourof my love shall
breed mighty children from their maidens.

49. Yea! without draught, without embrace: --- and theVoice answered Yea!
these things shall be.

50. Then I sought a Word for Myself; nay, for myself.

51. And the Word came: O Thou! it is well. Heed naught!I love Thee! I
love Thee!

52. Therefore had I faith unto the end of all; yea, untothe end of all.